Archive for May, 2009

Sharing A Ledge

Awakening: the clarity that results when choice is taken away- like sharing a ledge with a stranger, or, in my case, a doe on a narrow mountain pass.



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By The Numbers

Official weight: 170.4 pounds
Blood pressure: 170/112 (high)
EKG: normal
Total 195
HDL 37
LDL 142
Triglycerides 77

For a man over 50, with a family history of heart disease, my LDL needs to be 100 or lower, so I’m now on a cholesterol pill called Privicel (?). The good news is that the good doctor feels I do most likely have GERD, and not angina. I hiked almost two miles today with my sister with only a moment of heartburn, which went away for the second half of the hike. She experienced only a little light-headedness toward the end. We’re the walking wounded, we’re stubborn, and proud of it. And we’ve been instructed to keep walking. So there. And God said, the walking was good.

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More Fun With Words

New Vocabulary:

nuclear stress test

Or, everything could be just fine in there, the recent chest pains just being the result of:

gastro-esophageal reflux disease (or GERD), the fanciest possible name for severe chronic heartburn. D-Day is tomorrow.

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Setting The Stage

I continue to lose weight at a slow and steady pace, and my diet has been low-sodium, low-fat for over four months now. Last year, too much pizza, mac and cheese, and cappuccino (all foods of the past now) ballooned me up to 200 pounds. I now weigh 168. Twenty more to go. I’ll report my bp and cholesterol on Friday.

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A Broken Heart

There are always mysteries in every family which cannot be solved, let alone grasped in any meaningful way. On so many levels, the greatest mystery for me is that of my heart; a heart which I now share in a bond of blood with many others in my newfound clan. I feels good to belong, even with a broken heart.

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Fun With Words

genetics- from the Latin; (birth, descent, origin, beginning).

genealogy- from the Greek; genea (family, generation, descent).

Finding my biological parents established my descent, my real bloodline, and the history of our family’s genetic migration. I did indeed belong somewhere, after years of being told, by my adoptive mother, that I “really wasn’t blood”. My twenty-one year search corrected that omission.

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My half-sister Kim had a heart attack on Monday the 18th of May. I accompanied her to the ER, was with her at each step, and felt essentially like I was running through a dry run for my own death. Kim is fine, having suffered almost no damage to her heart, but will have to radically change her eating habits and lifestyle. Her cardiac ER surgeon, fatefully, cautioned me to get a treadmill test promptly, since heart disease runs strongly on our mother’s side of the family. So I am starting a new process that is essentially preordained, it seems to me.

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